Actor Colton Haynes: 'I Was Told My Dad Killed Himself When He Found Out I Was Gay'

Wednesday August 10, 2016

Actor Colton Haynes is the September cover feature for Out magazine, where he opens up his rocky coming out process and about how his family reacted to the news.

Earlier this year, the "Teen Wolf" star revealed he is gay in an Entertainment Weekly feature. In his latest interview with Out, called "Pretty Hurts," Haynes comments on the 2006 photoshoot he did for XY magazine that haunted him for years. The pics showed him with half-naked men and him making out with his then-boyfriend when he was 17.

"This was, like, the cover of Vogue for me. I was like, 'This is it! I'm going to be in a magazine!'" Haynes told Out. "I truly thought it was going to be this serious moment in my career, and I knew it would earn me enough money to get to L.A."

Haynes did not come out after booking his "Teen Wolf" role, adding: "I looked like I was fucking gay-bashing. Like I hated myself or I hated the gays, which was never the intention at all. I was just young and trying to make it in this town and doing what these people were telling me to do."

He said his agent dropped him after learning Haynes is gay, later telling him to advertise on the now-defunct

"I feel really bad that I had to lie for so long," Haynes told Out. "But I was told that was the only way I was going to be successful. When you're young in this industry, people take advantage of you, and they literally tell you that your dreams are going to come true. If you believe that, you'll do anything. And you do believe it, especially if you're from Kansas."

Haynes, who will star in the new season of "Scream Queens," said he knew he was gay when he was in the first grade and came out to his friends and family when he was 14. He said his mother's negative reaction to the news made him experiment with drugs and sex. He eventually ran away for a few weeks, hiding out in a friend's closet but received a phone call from an estranged relative who told him his father committed suicide.

"I'm the last person in the world who would say, 'Oh, my dad -- pity me,'" Haynes said. "But I was told that my dad killed himself because he found out I was gay. So, of course, I lost it and was like, 'How could you say something like that?' And no one will ever really know the truth.

"But my brother and my mom went to pick up my dad's stuff, and the only picture on his fridge was my eighth-grade graduation picture. So I was just like, 'fuck,'" he added.

Read Haynes' full Out magazine interview by clicking here.